Rainy Day Reflections

What I am Learning about Myself…

I don’t like not being great at things.

A simple statement. Maybe even sounds like a good thing, but it can play out in a myriad of ways that are not so good.

Let me explain... I don’t do things that I want to do or should do because I can’t do them with the excellence I think they demand.

So...

I am scared to post blogs because I don’t feel I have the time, creativity, artistic flair to make it worthwhile.

I am a culprit of not returning friend’s phone calls because it’s just been so long since catching up and the 20 minutes I have won’t be enough.

I don’t write that e mail/send that note because just a paragraph won’t be enough.

I don’t start that art project because the outcome be anything to write home about- instead of just enjoying the process and joy of creating.

I place all of these standards and expectations on myself that I can’t possibly fulfill. But I fail to realize that no one is asking me to! No one is placing those expectations on my shoulders accept for myself.

Pretty elementary, I know. But realizing things about yourself for the first time or in a new way or on a different level than you had before- profound.

That’s the beginning of change.